Is thinking that I could of done more. I could of given more, I could of taken more classes, I could of talked less and listened more, I could of studied harder, I could of been more. I know that everyone has these thoughts, but when does it go from a neglected after-thought to a course of action? I am at the point of my life when I should be doing more. Now is the time to travel, now is the time to stand up and make a statement, now is the time to take the big chances to chase the big dreams. What am I doing sitting down? Why am I content to sit on the sidelines? What happened to the dreams? I used to dream these huge elaborate dreams full of color and craziness…but now it seems that I just sleep. So, I decided today that I am going to wake up and start dreaming and chasing the wild things in life. First goal is to do well on my MCAT.
I normally don’t talk about my failures. I am kinda prideful, and I am working on it; but I hate admitting that I am wrong or that I could of done better. I already delayed medical school one year because I suffer from the sin of procrastination and now I am going to delay for a second year because I need to do better on the MCAT. All I can think is that I could of done better, I could of studied harder, I could of committed more, I could of done something different, I could of, I could of, I could of..but didn’t. I don’t even have a good excuse of why not.
So here it is: I will work on my character flaws, I will be a better friend, I will work on being humble, I will be less cluttered, I will take time to do the things that matter and cut the things that don’t
I will, just you wait and see.